What does the wisdom within want to share with you today?
So this morning I was doing a guided check-in. When I talk about the check-in, I’m talking about the first stage of the Inside Out Way where we’re really checking in with our body, heart, soul, mind and spirit to see what they’re needing, see what wisdom they’ve got to share, see how they are.
This morning I was very much focused on my mind and really got to spend some time with it and connect in with what was going on for it.
So what I knew prior was that my mind has been super, super busy and busy doesn’t even seem the right word, like working really hard for years. To begin with, it was very much my healing journey.
If you’ve read or are aware of my book, A Heart That Broke Free, you’ll know that the middle part of it is in my journals where my mind’s literally trying to work out what’s going on for me. What am I struggling with? What’s wrong with me? What’s wrong with me?
And, you know, from a mind place, trying to work out, trying to work out, trying to work out, trying to work out – exhausting.
Then when I brought in the other parts of me and really started to understand that, bringing in my body and my heart and my soul and my spirit, this really seem to make a difference.
Then my mind was like, “all right, so we’ve got some answers around that. So let’s focus on the business and how are we going to get your message out there.”
It did the same thing again. It was like working out, working out, working out, working out, working out.
And the more that I’ve brought the other parts of me. Body, heart, soul and spirit into the mix, I’ve really become aware of actually just how exhausted the mind is, just how much it has been fighting and going and trying to fix and sort things out and really on its own. For a long time, it didn’t have that connection to my body, didn’t have that connection to my heart, and my soul and my spirit.
It was like, I must find the answers, must find the answers, must find the answers.
And so, more recently, I realised my mind was exhausted.
I’ve been aware of this, and my heart and soul and the other parts of me were like, “yeah, we’re here. We’re here to support you.”
But my mind was open to it, but not fully trusting, but really quite exhausted.
And I describe it as battle weary. My mind was saying “I’m, I’m tired. We’ve been fighting and fighting and fighting and I, I want you to lead, but it doesn’t feel safe and I don’t know if I trust you.”
When I really got to check in with what my mind really wanted to share with me because I was like, well, how can I take these steps that I want to take if my mind feels broken, if it is so exhausted.
When I really got to check in with my mind this morning, the first thing it had to say and share was “I’m proud of you.”
That took me by surprise because as I say, I just thought my mind was exhausted and that it had nothing and was tired of all the struggle, but the fact that, through that, it had compassion.
Then the next bit that took a little moment to come through was “You’ve been worth fighting for.”
That’s when the tears came, tears and snot everywhere, it was just beautiful.
It was a beautiful union between my mind in particular and my heart, of feeling seen, clearly recognised.
I think for a long time, my mind had felt like it had had to fix and find the answers and protect and fight, because my feminine wasn’t strong. She was very non-existent for quite a while, she was there, but somewhere else.
I could can understand why my mind/my masculine/my headspace felt it had to protect my heart.
And what was beautiful, as my mind shared to my heart/feminine that it was proud of me. I was proud of my feminine. I was proud of my heart for not giving up for wanting to continue to try and open and open and open.
So for my heart and feminine to feel that recognition of the journey that we’ve been on.
From its protector, from the mind, from the masculine that has been working super hard and for my mind/masculine to then share “Right, let’s do this together.”
It felt this beautiful union and connection between my heart and mind, between my feminine and masculine.
Like, “we’ve got this as a team.”
That my feminine didn’t need to be fought for anymore. She can absolutely be held and supported and encouraged and seen and heard and all of those beautiful things. But actually, my mind, my masculine doesn’t have to fight, doesn’t have to protect.
And when we can bring our heart space and our head space together. When our feminine and masculine come together and bring the other parts of us with them. There’s a peace, there’s a groundedness. There’s togetherness, there’s a belongingness. There’s a feeling of support.
I think for a long time I’ve looked for that support elsewhere. But actually now my mind has the other parts alongside, it’s like, “yeah, we can do this”.
It’s not about being an independent island, which is a trauma response. there’s just a beautiful feeling of teamwork that is going on.
So my message for you today is simply.
What is your mind wanting you to know right now?
And to remind you too.
That you are absolutely worth fighting for.
And to also remind you.
That it doesn’t have to be a fight.
It doesn’t have to be the struggle.
We don’t have to do it on our own.
I’d love for you to just take a moment.
Connecting with your body.
Connecting with your heart.
Your soul.
Your mind.
And your spirit.
And just sit with them for a bit.
They may have something to say right now.
They may not.
I’d love you to give them that time….
